Day: 2/3/08

Having taken up the path of Chaos Magick, I have found chaos in my life in many strange ways. I do have to note, that I have to remind myself that just because I have an energy to call upon for help, does not mean to call on it every second of every day. I mention this because I have on occassion called upon Chaos to help me in some way that I probably should be doing on my own. Or, that it was something that if I had done it right the first time, then I wouldn't have to be in a situation where I needed help with it.

Chaos has come unbidden at times too. I was wasting time on the internet this day, and I had a sudden urge to explore mathmatical equations. This in turn sent me searching for physics equations, and that ultimately to the physics of the galaxy. That search lead me to "the physics of Super Mario Galaxy" (honestly, it's really been done, this is just one of the links for it). Who would have thought that I could absorb myself in the reading of this article that is nearly ubergeek-dom (yes, I am still something of a geek myself, so don't hate me for such a comment).

I digress here to make a note that apparently I am making some progress on my personal growth. That I could focus my entire attention into this article, is a step in the right direction. Attention is said in some systems to be the base of all that we do, the better you can pay attention, the better you will live. Or something like that. :)

For a quiet (or as quiet as a day can get with a 2 year old in the house) Sunday, it was rather uneventful, and that is just ok with me :)

Day: 1/29/08

More study today for me. This time, I was spending time online to find out about various Norse (viking) hol(y)days. As most information regarding the ancient Norse religion has been obscured or corrupted or forgotten over the years, there is much variation and variety to be found. Some days I found were claiming ancient origin, even to preclude recognized Christian holidays. These earlier days bear some, and often many, explanations as to how current holidays are actually based on the older.

Some of the holidays are more recent or clannish in their observance. These days are not likely to have been recognized in ancient times, but they call back to ancient times to honor the past and the dead.

A few websites that I visited (and still have the links to :) ):

http://www.asatru.org/

http://www.wizardrealm.com/norse/holidays.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lists_of_holidays#Celtic.2C_Norse.2C_and_Neopagan_holidays

Not that I actually plan to adopt these particular holidays, but I find them interesting and as I don't particularly celebrate many holidays as it is now, maybe I will find some meaning in new ones that I am not as familiar with.

Christmas is one holiday that I typically celebrate, sort of. I find that each year I lose more interest in the actual day as the commercialism continues to push and push on us. What does Christmas mean to most people now anymore but a day we are supposed to give presents? Do children even understand 'why' they are getting presents?

Halloween is a fun one for me. I enjoy this holiday (even though we don't get the day off work for it). However, this too is becoming a commercial day, more and more push to sell candy. Are children even told about All Hallow's Eve and why it is observed?

The meanings of so many things that are observed, people have forgotten in favor of the commercial aspects of the event. Thanksgiving, Christmas, Halloween, Boss's Day, and on and on. I don't even know 'why' we celebrate some of these days. A sad state our state is in.

And people wonder why there is so much violence and hatred in the world. I can think of one reason.

Day: 1/28/08

Of today, it was a strange day. I followed pretty much my normal routine for a typical work day, but as I went through the minutes of my job, there was something 'odd'. People around me seemed different. Their actions and words and 'feel' were off, different, almost alien.

I had a couple of magickal friends do a check on me, because I was feeling a bit different as well. Turns out that my aura was reported to be a yellow and green flavor and rather spikey. My normal'ish is kind of a laid back purple, so I'm told.

The only real thing I can think of that might have caused the change is that I was studying on Wikipedia about the Norse mythology and the varied deities of that mythos for my chaos magick repretoire.

To that, I have identified ten deities that I 'chose' as potential uses in the near to far future:

Andhrimnir
Bragi
Eir
Forseti
Freyr
Freyja
Frigg
Heimdall
Odin
Thor

I included the links to Wikipedia for each deity, if you the reader are curious, but each of these were chosen based on influences they have. Each represents, or is associated, with an aspect that I find myself needing or wanting at times.

Aside from the oddness of the day, everything else was pretty much normal.